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I have had depression for about 10 years now (diagnosed for that long) and I’ve been taking anti-depressants over the past 9 years. Currently I’m taking generic Prozac and since losing my job in November 2009, I increased my dosage to taking 4 pills per day.
The past week I decided to reduce my daily intake of Prozac. I want to stop gaining so much weight. I know for a fact that my constant weight gain is due to these anti-depressants and I’m so tired of it! That is the WORST side-effect you can get and I’ve had it this whole time. So you can imagine I’ve gained a lot of weight just since being on these medicines. Ugh!
It’s like a vicious cycle… You take anti-depressants to help with depression… You start to gain weight because of side-effects… You get even more depressed since you’ve gained weight… So you feel like you need more of the anti-depressants because your depression has worsened from the weight gain. Never ending…….
And Prozac is supposed to be the one medicine which doesn’t give as much weight gain as the rest of them. I see no difference. Honestly. I’ve taken Celexa, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and some others and Prozac seems to give me the same amount of weight gain.
I just have a constant sad face. I feel like my smiles are fake. I feel so empty inside. I feel like I need a new life. I don’t like the one I have and I’m tired of living this boring, anxiety-ridden life. I just wish things would have worked out for me, the way I had always planned on them. And since they haven’t, it’s made me feel even worse about myself. I hate anxiety. I absolutely hate anxiety! I don’t wish it on my worst enemies (if I had any).
And for some reason, my anxiety today is through the roof. I don’t know why. I wish I knew. Then maybe I could fix it and repair myself so I could go one with my day. But no. I sit at home because I have too much anxiety to even drive anywhere. I babysat earlier for my nephews but after that, I just felt so nervous and anxious. I’m almost shaking from my anxiety. I feel like it could grow into a full-blown panic attack if I let it. But there are always things to do so I must press on with the day. I pray that this too shall pass.
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3 Responses to “Anxiety”
April 30th, 2010 at 7:39 pm
Marci…I wish I was there to give you a hug! I get anxiety…but it’s more about worrying and stuff. I just hope you know I’m thinking about you…even if it’s all the way from Idaho!
May 1st, 2010 at 8:02 pm
Thank you Tawna! I miss the old fun times we all had together. Thank you for caring about me. I think about you often too!
May 26th, 2010 at 10:42 pm
My husband would completely agree with this. He has been on pills for about 18 months and has gained probably 60 pounds…maybe more.
He can’t stop taking them, because he needs them to be sane…but bummer side effect.